I sometimes catch myself wondering, “If I was a better behaved child, if I didn’t cry as much or throw as many tantrums, would it, in turn, have helped my chances of having a well-behaved baby?”
Of course, this isn’t a very good attitude. There’s actually not much concern for the time my parents went through or the time my baby is going through now, just a self-interested good/bad karma sort of thing.
Both past and future karma are best dealt with right now, with the thoughts and actions of this moment. And really, I wasn’t that bad of a child, and neither is Fina. It only seems that way when I want this moment to be something it’s not!